Sometimes the words just aren’t there. I reach deep…I pray…I read…I walk…I listen to music…I do many things to try and gain some clarity…for the right words…something…anything. But when I sit down in front of the computer and stare at the blinking cursor before me all I can muster up is…nothing. I’m void of word or worthwhile thoughts. It’s one of the biggest frustrations for a writer…and we writers are always looking for the reasons why? We’re always looking for the heart of the matter…
Some call it, “writers block”, but I seriously dislike that phrase. That somehow I am blocked from performing a talent I love doesn’t make sense to me. No, the writing ability is still there…the willingness to write is still there…but for some reason the words just won’t materialize.
It’s almost like when someone is seeking counsel from you concerning something very personal about their life…but you find yourself unable to respond. You kick yourself as you see in this person’s eyes their desire to gain some sort of clarity or wisdom, but still all you can manage is a dazed look. Internally you’re screaming at yourself to say something! But the billboard of your mind is a temporary canvas with the phrase, “How would you like to see your thoughts here? For more information call…”
But you know what? Maybe that’s okay. Maybe it’s okay that I don’t have the words right now…maybe it’s okay that we don’t always have the answers during those intense conversations. Maybe the timing is wrong…maybe God knows we’d give bad advice or wisdom in that moment so He somehow takes the words from us…I know it may sound crazy, but the last I checked God can do anything…so just maybe for a little while staring at that flashing cursor is okay.
Maybe all our friend needs is a listening ear…maybe they will come to realize that in that moment just knowing someone cares enough to listen means so much more than anything that person could say. Just maybe silence in that moment is when they hear Jesus whispering in their ear, “I love you.” Maybe as you read this blog entry (my readers) you will hear the same thing.
The reality for me is this…I don’t want to write anything that’s not motivated by Love. Without Love my words on this blog are just filling up memory on some server somewhere. Love is what gives life substance…Love is what gives us hope…Love is what saves us…I long to Love others and to inspire in a way that there is no doubt Jesus is the forefront of my existence and the Love of my life. Without Love…nothing I do will ever mean a thing…and that will always be the heart of the matter…
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“If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don’t love, I’m nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. If I speak God’s Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, “Jump,” and it jumps, but I don’t love, I’m nothing. If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don’t love, I’ve gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love."
1 Corinthians 13 (the message)
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